Don’t judge.  You just never know what someone has gone through in their life or even in that day!  The prettiest, the richest, the poorest, the most deformed people have stuff going on in their lives that they may not have any control over.  Love them.  Help them.  Give to them.

Ben

We went to Detroit Lakes last weekend to meet Tricia and Christian.  The boys played and played and played and talked and talked and talked.  Oh and we googoo and gaagaaed over the baby to of course!  It was so much fun.

The boys played in the pool and had a blast as well.  Ben is just learning to swim.  He still uses his floaties on his arms, but he is getting so brave it’s great!  He still gets a little nervous when his head goes under the water.  I always tell him not to panic and just take deep breaths.  Well he started to jump in the water in the deep end.  One time he came up gagging and flailing his arms, so I ran over to him.  I told him to stop panicking and take a deep breath, to which he replied, “Mom I am not panicking I was just afraid I was going to drown!”

Ha!  Well there you have it!

Great News!

Well I guess it’s official now.  I had my ultra sound and there is a baby in my tummy!  I am so excited!  I can’t even believe it’s happening and until my ultrasound yesterday I have been hesitant to get too excited.  But now my baby is 2.26 cm long and has a heart beat of 167! 

I have been out of practice for so long I am going to have to read all of those baby books over again.  Benjamin just turned six years old!  He is more excited than I am I tell you!  That boy can’t wait for the baby to come. 

So now we have to shift gears from the adoption of a toddler or preschooler to diapers and formula.  Just what Mitch was excited about avoiding:)  Oh well – I will take the poopy, pukey, paranormal smells of a new born.  It will be an adventure!

My Mom

My mom has a look about her when she is concerned about one of her little chicks.  She is so caring and loving and has such a gentle touch.  She is always willing to help out when she can. 

At the drop of a hat she will fly to rescue one of her injured chicks.

My son and her share a wonderful smile/grin and I laugh when they both show it off to the world.  I can’t imagine what my life would be like without her. 

She has always been there for me and my family now to hold our hand, to cry with us, to laugh with us and just be with us. 

As I grow older I am finding that we are such similar creatures.  I think we are even beginning to look a little like one another:)  Certainly I am beginning to act more like her:)

I want to say thank you to my mom who, even though I don’t show it all the time, has a special place in my heart and whom I love very much!

Thanks mom for teaching me what unconditional love is!

Becoming a writer

With the numerous re-writes I have done to part 1 of my great American love story I wonder if I will ever finish it!

No one ever says to you when you aspire to be a writer that it is going to be a series of writes and re-writes and more re-writes.  The movies and books I have read about authors all paint it as easy as sitting in front of a window with a view and having it all pour out of them right into a best seller – HA!  Not so much!

It’s hard work!  Of course it’s hard work that I love and had no idea I would love.  I have always known since I was a little girl that I wanted to tell my stories in the written form, but editing and trying to make them better were always so much of a bother to me.  Now that I really have something of substance to work with it’s actually kind of fun!  And I have to give my friends at CW props, because they are helping me through this step by step. 

Just as so many other times in my life I thought I knew everything, I realize now how very little I know:)  Just part of growing up I guess.  Being 32 I thought I was grown, but apparently I have a lot to learn yet!  Be patient my name will be in enormous block letters at the top of a best selling novel yet!  One can dream anyway:)

I added more poetry today!

Man it feels good to write my poetry! I have been away from it for about a week or more and I have been feeling lost.
It is so freeing to speak what you want to speak and find different ways to do it.
My Thesaurus is one of my favorite books. I got it when I was in High School and I use it always when I am writing.
I love the way it smells too. It smells of an ancient book, like old paper and dust.
Well I hope you enjoy the poem. I hope to be back on here daily.